EDITORIAL - COMPUTER FREAKS AND DE-SENSITIVATION
A little over three years ago I started computing. One can of
course debate whether is was real computing, because the machine
that I started doing it on was the Commodore 64. But let's not
discuss whether or not the C-64 was a true computer - I computed
on it, anyway.
The computer soon became a more than evident part of my life -
one might even conclude that I was getting to be addicted to it.
Suddenly, many things did not arouse interest in me anymore; I
was de-sensitivising, loosing my touch with the real outside
world and not able to feel any human emotions. When someone hurt
himself at school and the blood was gushing over the tiles, I
just wondered how that would look when animated on a computer.
When I heard music, I wondered how it would sound on my '64 and
when I saw something else happen I immediately associated it with
a new game I had just received. Words like "RUN", "LOAD" and
"SAVE" lost their original meanings to me, and many more
perfectly normal words made me think back about the small
electronics device standing up at my attic room. Of course I
looked to girls, but I am afraid it was just to imagine how they
would appear on my machine as a digitized picture.
Second came the financial problem. Disks costed money, after all,
and the telephone-and post bills started towering above all my
other, regular investments. I could not even go to town anymore
without returning with a new computer gag, disks, or even some
crap old game. Yes. One might say I was heavily addicted. It may
be called a miracle that I succeeded in finishing my current
school level, but I am glad to say I have.
Things appeared to grow less when I switched to the ST (later, I
bought a '64 back, anyway), about one and a half year ago. I
regained some of my senses, although I still spent all my money
buying disks (after all, 3½" disks were more expensive than the
old, floppy ones). My first stomach aches started appearing when
I found out that I missed the loads of C-64 software - the ST was
still at its early stages and there wasn't much to get excited
about. So I slowly got a bit less addicted to my personal number
Things started growing worse again when I started making ST NEWS
- especially after it became a project in which more people could
participate, with a reader's service, PD Library and things like
That was until last summer, begin July. I visited an old girl-
friend of mine that I had practically only known through mail for
the past seven years. Behind the thick crust of computer
thoughts, my heart started ticking faster and before you knew it,
the shell was melting rapidly - I fell in love. Just in time, as
my de-sensitivation was driving me apart from nearly everyone who
didn't know heck about computers. I was just about to become a
bachelor forever - only interested in computer and perhaps.....
computers, when I saw Willeke again (the girl that has been
mentioned so many times in the previous two issues of ST NEWS).
She had been through a metamorphosis so it seemed, and she now
knocked me right off my socks.
Everybody knows the story after that. I visited her several
times, and recently she visited me (when we made the picture in
this issue of ST NEWS). Each time we parted, my heart was feeling
really heavy and I was in a poetic and sentimental mood for days.
So I turned out not to have de-sensitivated irreversably - thanks
to Willeke, who rescued my on....let's say....the edge of
The morale of this story? I am really not much more than a subtle
exhibitionist (I want to talk about Willeke and my feelings
towards her), but a human being after all. Willeke brought back
the human touch in ST NEWS, just when I was about to be a cold
and heart-less games reviewer/computer programmer - something
which was already manifesting itself in the quite un-personal
approach of ST NEWS up till Volume 2 Issue 4. To close this part
down, I'd like to offer you something Willeke wrote, also with
regard to the picture I included in this issue:
"Hi guys! The person who writes this is called Willeke. Richard
is addicted to ST NEWS and to me, and I'd like to tell you
something. Last weekend, Richard made some pictures of me and I
hope you will like the one that he's included in this ST NEWS
issue. I don't think I'm pretty at all, but Richard gave you the
idea I am, so I am a little bit afraid that you will be
disappointed. If you'd like me to write more in ST NEWS, please
say so and I will. Greetings and a smile from Willeke."
I hope you'll still enjoy this issue of ST NEWS, in spite of the
fact that I have discarded most over-sentimental Willeke stuff.
(Editor of ST NEWS)
The text of the articles is identical to the originals like they appeared in old ST NEWS issues. Please take into consideration that the author(s) was (were) a lot younger and less responsible back then. So bad jokes, bad English, youthful arrogance, insults, bravura, over-crediting and tastelessness should be taken with at least a grain of salt. Any contact and/or payment information, as well as deadlines/release dates of any kind should be regarded as outdated. Due to the fact that these pages are not actually contained in an Atari executable here, references to scroll texts, featured demo screens and hidden articles may also be irrelevant.