"I've already told you more than I know."
THE QUEST 4 THE ULTIMATE POETRY
A Collection of 13 poems
by L.H. Johansson
Just before the deadline, we got some rather interesting poems
annex song lyrics written by our Swedish ST NEWS distributor Lars
Henrik Johansson (a.k.a. Dark Shadow). Of course I was pleased to
use them, so here they are...all © 1993 Lars Henrik Johansson.
Here goes nothing...
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When I was a rock n' roll youngster
All that I had when I was just a lad was a boulder,
that I kept carrying on my shoulder.
And when I got older, I bore it on my head,
until I dropped dead.
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A distorted community / Do you care to care?
If you see someone commit a crime,
do you even care to waste your time?
If somebody's blood is getting spilled,
do you intervene and risk to get killed?
If you witness somebody being raped,
do you interfere or is your heart stone shaped?
If somebody is called nigger,
and somebody else is squeezing the trigger,
would you try to take the gun away,
even if it doesn't feel o.k.?
This world of ours is ruled by violence,
only you and I can stop it!
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Insurance? Sure!
We're heading towards judgement day.
The only way to stop it, is to change the way.
Our destiny.
We're travelling fast on a one way road.
Gotta find the happiness code.
It's time to change the values,
and I'm not talking about currencies.
We just can't get any earth warranties.
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A lifetime
Born bones and skin.
Full of energy within.
Lived a life includin' sin 'n everythin'.
Died flesh and muscles.
Buried in the ground.
Not to be seen around.
People wakin' up, mournin',
in the early everyday mornin'.
Life has to go on, 'cause a new being of bones and skin,
will walk right in.
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Grounde(a)d for the last time
Becoming a part of earth.
Waiting for rebirth.
Giving life to flowers, grass and weeds,
things that everybody needs.
Becoming soil.
Becoming a part of the ground.
Will never again walk around.
But who knows?
Later on you might get a new life,
including house, dog, kids and wife.
Now, anyway, it's time for you to rest,
that is now the thing that you can do best.
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Hip Hopacrazy
Strange feet are stompin' while the bass is pumpin'.
Weird sounds, deranged minds, feet movin' to the beat.
Feet expressing an intoxicated emotion,
are you ready to take notion?
Strings pulled by dope,
noone accepts a nope.
Lights flashing, bottle crushing,
feet movin' to the beat.
Tell me, how do you behave,
when you're giving life to the rave?
Chicks ranting,
male chauvinist pigs panting,
feet movin to the beat.
The day after,
still hearing a laughter.
The party is over.
Yes the party is hangover.
Not a single foot movin' anymore.
But soon it's time again,
and somebody else gets the chance to score.
- Hangover and out -
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Oppressive & depressive
In his world everybody was the same.
He was satisfied.
The rest of the population was terrified.
They felt a pain.
Everybody looked like a mix of a model and a professor.
God, the man was an oppressor.
People who didn't know everything that he knew were torn away.
"It got to be perfect" he used to say.
He believed in what he called natural selection.
How in hell did he win that election?
That must have been a fatal mistake or a complete fake.
He got the chance to seduce people with lies,
and later on hang them with their own ties.
He lived in a castle, didn't look the people in their eyes.
He was the devil in disguise.
The people he didn't want to touch,
gave him a feeling that they believed
he thought they weren't worth much.
And that was true. We knew it, me and you.
People who, in his opinion, weren't pretty enough
were condemned and thrown to the broken stuff.
Sent to the garbage dump, chopped in pieces,
becoming extinct species.
He said he was sent on a mission by God, to rule over us all.
Putting, what he called, worthless people to a wall.
People shot at his call.
People weren't allowed to complain,
they were just allowed to nod.
He made a super-power out of people's flesh and blood,
the worst kind of fraud.
Oh god, he stored our money abroad.
He took everything that the people had in their homes.
The population wanted to get back at him
by tearing out his bones.
One day the people decided
to turn his mansion into ashes and dust.
And suddenly he had nobody to trust.
A new word saw the daily light. The word was justice.
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My share
A house made of concrete, people's minds controlled.
No way to be discrete, no possibility to be free.
For someone, perhaps the place to be,
but not for little, little me.
I wanna get out into the warm summer's air.
It's time for revolution.
I wanna get my share.
I wanna control my own evolution.
Gimme my share now!
My share of joy.
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Y brane disphunktion?
(A conundrum of the cerebrum)
I have a pain in my brain
it's always the same.
I'm going insane.
I have a crazy cerebral cortex and cannot think straight,
that's the reason why I have to wait.
After a while I know who I am,
then I can deal with my mind jam.
My little brain is schizophrenic,
and my mind is in panic.
Who am I? Who are you?
Can you tell me what to do?
When I get carried away someone always says hey!
I am going to the funny farm,
where I cannot do no harm.
When I go nuts,
someone gives me cuuts.
Just to put an end
to the stupidity of his friend.
My life is no good,
so please use me as food.
My brain is delicious,
oooh so delirious.
Cortex steak or brain substance milkshake,
which one will you take?
Or would you rather choose
a bottle of intoxicating booze.
For me it's like being caught in a trap,
when studying in my mind map.
Disorientation is a limitation.
Insanity a necessity.
To live in this world,
and make your voice heard.
Brainwaves are superior.
Sometimes they make people inferior.
I am out of my mind.
That's the wisdom of my kind.
So brat, what about an insane chat?
Talking bullshit makes time fly,
and sooner or later we'll be sitting in the sky.
Talking to lord almighty about irrelevant things,
such as how Sinatra sings, and does the ant have wings?
Why mustn't people be nerds,
and spread crazy words?
If you are straight thinking,
people will only use you for linking.
Linking what other people have decided,
you won't be reminded.
If you want to have a will of your own,
then it's time for you to wear the insanity
crown.
I am as smart as a mite's fart.
And that's no good for a start.
My IQ would be high,
almost up to the sky,
if I was a cloud.
Then I could be proud..
of myself.
Can someone find a better mind than mine?
That would be fine!
My thoughts aren't worth a dime,
so don't you waste your time.
Figures, letters and crap in my head,
will remain until I'm dead.
I'm writing this down with ink,
'cause I cannot use my brain and think,
all according to my shrink.
What is that smell?
Is it coming from a burning braincell?
Lack of braincells in my brain,
that's the reason why I'm going insane.
My consciousness is very poor.
i don't even know how to open an ordinary door.
I don't know who I am. But who are you?
Uncle Sam?
I gotta find a new state of mind.
A place where I can settle down,
in a psychotic little town.
I wanna live in a nut-house that is big,
where I may act like a pig.
I don't wanna be nobody else but me.
I'm your memory.
I had a brain drain,
it started in my cerebral membrane.
I had a brain concussion.
But I can still use my head as a percussion.
The human bass
is now a part of my own grace.
But please, don't hit me in my face.
Brain, brain, brain.
Can someone stop my mental pain?
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Complexity of inferiority
When I examined myself in the mirror this morning
I saw my hair in a mess, but, so what? I've been
through a lot of stress.
There were spots in my face.
Man, what a disgrace!
I had a scar on my chin
and my muscles were too thin.
My mouth looked like a black hole.
My pupils looked like white dwarfs.
There was a wound in my soul.
My eyebrows looked like an owergrown wood,
I wished that I could hide my face in a hood.
I felt too tall,
I had no respect for myself at all.
I felt too short,
and saw a vision of myself sitting accused in court.
Accused for being too ugly, not at all cuddly.
My nose was red.
My life was sheer as a thread,
I wanted to drop dead.
My feet were cold,
my pants were too old,
I could aswell have been bald.
One ear looked like a stonecake,
and the other was taken for a headphone fake.
My head was aching,
and my arms were shaking.
I had a big birthmark,
and my dirty shirt was too dark.
My mood was really bad,
I was a miserable lad.
I jumped back into bed,
wishing that I was dead.
I fell asleep when I was
counting some tiny sheep.
I slept like a scapegoat.
I woke like a puppet,
and had a feeling that I
was resurrected as a muppet.
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Be my future
Girl, you're the light in my life.
Why can't you become my wife?
Oh, you're so sweet.
Can't you hear my heart beat?
Just move your stuff to me, and
you'll see how our future can be.
You're so cute.
Come on, join me on a honeymoon route,
what a nice pursuit.
Why are we standing here like nerds?
Why don't we act like a couple of love birds?
Wealth is nice, but there's something above,
the wonderland of love!
We'll have a white little house
and a cute little dancing mouse.
We'll have kids, a car,
and a personal bar.
I'll show you what I'm able to do,
I really need you.
Together we can build a paradise,
we'll stay together even if we
have to go through a crise.
Girl, just open your eyes and see,
that you're the only thing that is important to me.
I wanna dedicate my life to you.
But do you love me?
I wish that I knew..
I'm about to cry,
and I know why.
Do you want me or not?
If so, marry me on the spot!
If you start to fly,
I'll understand and lay me down to die.
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Putrid Hatred
Punk, what's your problem?
You know I wouldn't never like to see you hurt.
But still you insist to drag me in the dirt.
You tell me that I am shit
and cover my face with your spit.
You kick my head
and hope that I will drop dead.
You use me,
you abuse me,
and then you ignore me.
How egocentric can a person be?
You flee from me like I am a plague.
Gosh, your arguments are so vague.
You think that I am stupid, putrid
and the person you least would like to be.
Why? You don't even know me.
You treat me like vapour,
just to prove your vigour.
You think that you are thoroughly cool.
I belive that you are nothing but a blind fool.
I am used to this.
I will survive.
Just to disappoint you by staying alive.
But don't you ever tend to hurt my friend.
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Knowledge is the best knowledge
I know what I know.
But I don't know what I don't know.
If only I would know what I knew
and what I will know. Some years
ago I knew that I would learn to
know things I didn't know at that
time. Now I know what I was about
to know. Now you know that!
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All lyrics are (C) 1993 Lars Henrik Johansson
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Lars Henrik Johansson, 1993-1994
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